You know what?

I wish I had never met you. Why? Because maybe there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten promises. No need for rejected hugs. No need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting like you care. No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing. 

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But then again, I'm glad I met you. 'Cause you were the one who always asks me if there's something wrong. You were the one who loved me for me. The one who cared when everyone else's didn't. The one who listened. The one who stayed up late just to talk about random shits ever. You were the one whom I told secrets to. The one who taught me new things. The one who laughed at my bad jokes. The one who did things, just for me. 

Imperfect.

I'm not a perfect girl. My hair doesn't always stay in place and i spill things a lot. I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I have have a broken heart. My friends and I sometimes fight and maybe some days nothing goes right. But when I think about it and take a step back, I remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe, just maybe, I like being imperfect.

Anonymous.

As I sit with little things to do,
My mind is filled with thoughts of you.

As I work hard throughout the day,

I miss your smile that's miles away.

As I lay down and try to sleep,

It's memories of you I always keep.

You must know this ; my love so true,
I spend all my time missing you.


- anonymous

Sige, ako na.

Sige. Ako na. Ako na ang tanga. Kasi nagmahal ako ng taong hindi dapat. Alam ko naman 'yun eh. Kaso anong magagawa ko? Hindi ko naman kayang pigilan 'to. Eh kahit ikaw nga siguro na nagbabasa nito hindi mo kayang pigilin 'tong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya eh. Hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. Kaso lang, nasasaktan ako eh. Hindi ko alam kung 'san ako lulugar. Di ko alam kung ano ba ko sa kanya. Ang labo nya din naman kasi kausap eh. Actually simula't sapul malabo naman talaga. Hindi ko na nga lang pinapansin eh. Para hndi na ko lalong maguluhan pa. Kaso everytime ba na may sisingit sa amin, ako yung magpaparaya? Di ba parang unfair yon? Pareho naman kaming nagmamahal ah! Ang pinagkaiba lang, sya ang mahal ko. Pero iba yata talaga ang mahal nya eh. Habang tinatype ko tong new post kong to, para kong batang umiiyak. Promise. Sana minsan mapansin nya na sa mga ginagawa nya, nasasaktan ako. Hindi pa ba sapat na sa t'wing nakikita ko sya na masaya sa iba, namamatay ako? Hay nako. Di ko na kayang tapusin 'tong post na to. Pasensya na kung nabitin ka ha. Kailangan ko lang muna ilabas to. Ang hirap kasi eh. Parang sasabog ako pag hindi ko iniyak to. Salamat sayo ah? Hindi man kita kilala at least nabasa mo 'tong blog ko at parang nakausap mo na rin ako. Oh pano? Una na ko ah? Mahaba-habang iyakan pa 'to. Salamat uli sayo. Babye. :'(

Elibs.

Bilib ako sa kanya.
Nagawa niyang baguhin ako.
Binigyan kahulugan buhay ko.
Pero mas lalo pa kong bumilib.
Biruin mo? 
Sa tigas kong 'to,
NASAKTAN NIYA AKO. 

Isisi daw ba?

Kung nagmahal ka ng isang taong hindi dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para magsupply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at sisisihin mo naman ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin. Bakit?


UTANG NA LOOB! Wag mo isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay!


TANDAAN MO :
Magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa mga nangyayari sa iyo kundi ... ikaw mismo.


- BOB ONG

Love?

Pag nagmahal ka, pumunta ka dun sa mabuti, hindi sa mabait lang. Mahalin mo yung yayakapin ka kahit di ka pa naliligo, hahalikan ka kahit bagong gising, papaluhain ka kakatawa hindi yung luluha ka pa para lang mapatawa. Mahalin mo yung makakasama mo sa bawat araw ng buhay mo hindi yung puro gabi lang. Mahalin mo yung KAYANG HAWAKAN ANG KAMAY MO SA HARAP NG BUONG MUNDO at higit sa lahat, mahalin mo yung kailangan ka kasi mahal ka nya hindi yung mahal ka nya dahil kailangan ka nya. ^_^

Who's the most famous person you've met?

I think it would be the Secretary of State Hillary Clinton when she visited the Philippines for the Manila Forum at UST last November 2009. It was a great honor to be one of the representatives of STI colleges on that very historic event. (:

Ask me anything

^_^

One of the reasons why people get so sentimental, it's because memories are the only things that don't change. When everything else does, there are things in life that you can't hold on forever no matter how much you fight for it. Sometimes, destiny isn't always good. It becomes playful. When you met someone you learned to love, you thought that it was destiny who made your paths cross. But what if making your paths cross is just a part of the game that playful destiny create? Making you realize in the end that the person you thought was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay. But only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you've already fallen. It's not easy to state a reason when you decide to leave your love. Some might think it's just an excuse. Some might even be mad at you. What they don't see is the fact that it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn't deserve to be hurt. Especially when you can't actually state the reason why you have to leave. You can never own something that was never yours. So let's stop gripping on things we expect to last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Forever is a lie. Everything is transitory. So while you have something in your hand, put in mind that it's just borrowed. So that someday when it's gone, it won't take you eternity just to let it go. When your feelings get strong for someone, it is always wise to stop for a while and give your heart a time to breathe. A time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reasons not on emotions. Because the saddest thing that can happen is when you fall in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship. Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes be an illusion. There are times when I wish that I was limited to certain emotions. So that I'll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed, and never get my fragile heart broken. But the same thing means that I'll never know how it feels to love and be loved in return. The thought of it kinda scares me. To have a heart that's whole but numb, or a heart that's broken but real. Someday, we''ll all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight. Maybe when that time comes, we'll be laughing at our old dumb selves realizing how stupid we were to stand up for thing we know weren't really meant for us. But I guess, learning takes time and mistakes make one's journey fun. Life is what we make it. Love makes the world go round. So let's live, love and take whatever pain it brings. Though it's hard to wait around for something that I know will never happen, it's harder to stop when I know it's everything I've always wanted. But you know what? I'm glad. I'm glad it happened. We're good FRIENDS and I'm thankful for that. Take care of yourself always, my dear friend. I'm just here. Always here. (:

I love you. Goodbye.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Some people are just not meant to be in your life, no matter how much you want them to be. You hug him goodbye like it's nothing. While all you want to do is hold on forever. I used to smile when I tell people that you are mine. But now, I can't even smile and say your name at the same time. As much as I love you, I have to say GOODBYE. 'Cause I know that you would be happier if I let you go. I'm sorry if I made you cry. I'm sorry if tears fell from your eyes. But remember, for every tear that fell from your eyes, two fell from mine. Missing you isn't the hardest part. Knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart. I'll never forget the times we once shared. And I'll always remember how much you once cared. Now, it's over. It's time to move on. It's never easy to see you turning back. But I have to take the pain and cry all the way home 'cause I know it will never be the same again. I know that when you leave, distance will keep us apart. But distance, no matter how far, can't change these feelings in my heart. Just turn your head when you see me, i will understand. One day, I will be able to look you in the eye without feeling the pain I've caused you. I hope in time, you will be happy as you call my name, once again. Happiness is too far for us now. But even if it's near, I know it will be hard for us to get there.


"baby, it's never gonna work out. I LOVE YOU. . . GOODBYE."

You are special.

Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you.

It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart; these things set you apart from everyone else. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday. And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing.

Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you.

Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you.

Love Always,
Angela

Ang laki mong hassle. SOBRA.

Mixed signals ka lagi. Minsan di ka nagpaparamdam. Kung saan saan ka pumupunta. Lakas mong mangasar. Minsan kailangan ako pa yung unang mag-text. Mas sweet ka kapag may kasalanan ka. You're hot then you're cold. Ala katy perry ang drama mo. May mga araw na parang wala kang pakialam sa akin. Minsan laitero ka. Inis ka pag late ako dumating sa usapan. Eh na late lang naman ako kasi nag paganda ako para sayo tapos hndi mo rin napansin. Pag galit ako, sasabayan mo. Pag nagseselos ako, ang labo ng mga sagot mo. Parang gusto mo pa palalain selos ko. Minsan parang ako lang lagi ang may care sa relasyon na to. Pero sa lahat ng 'yon, isa lang masasabi ko. KAHIT HASSLE KA, MAHAL NA MAHAL PA RIN KITA.